Thursday, July 16, 2015

To the 16 year old me @ 7/16/2015 02:45:00 PM

To the sixteen year old Cherie, Life can be hard now, studying for O levels trying to get into a reputable junior college and everything. But hang on, its all going to be worth it. Two years down the road, you will get into your dream course in a local university, making your parents proud, relatives proud. Life is not all about studying. Treasure your friends; they are the ones who will be there for you when you are at your lowest. They will help you through your first heartbreak, setbacks in schools, bring you through obstacles. Do not be afraid to open your heart to the person you love. Embrace love and enjoy every moment of it. Do not be afraid of heartbreak. He will teach you valuable lessons in life, input excitement and values in your life. In a few years’ time, he will become the most beautiful memory in your life. Do not be afraid to try new stuff and step out of your comfort zone. You will become more sociable and fun to be with. Don’t fear. When everyone starts getting attached, do not be sad for yourself. Out there, there will be someone waiting for you, the one right for you. People may misunderstand you but as long as you know yourself it’s okay. Do not be scared of venturing into new relationships, you may get something beautiful out of it.

Sunday, January 27, 2013

I'm such a failure @ 1/27/2013 12:14:00 AM

I don't know how to make people like me, adore me. I do not know how to joke. I do not know how to cheer people up. I do not know how to interact with people. I'm a boring person isn't it? So what is the point of studying so hard? What's the point of working so hard? My cousins fare worse for their studies compared to me. But the score much well for their life as a human being. All I know is to study n study n study. Friends a few less than 10. Dating experience none. So this is my life? What am I doing? What exactly am I? I fail totally as a human being? Isolate me just let me sit alone in the class. Our picture is never ur profile picture. I'm not pretty. I'm fat. Why do I have to work so hard to achieve things? Why ppl have it so easily? Why despite the hard work I had put in I still gained nth? Am I really a trash? Cca a normal member. A normal to the max person? Someone not worth people attention? Can u make me feel important for once? Not extra not an eyesore. Not a substitute. My life is so pointless and meaningless. Can God pls give me some directions to go about in my life? I'm tired of being me. I hate myself.

Wednesday, January 02, 2013

New year, a new beginning @ 1/02/2013 01:04:00 AM

It's the new year!! A brand new year, new beginning. Note to self for this year I'm going to be more optimistic n stop complaining. I'm also not going to be bothered about ppl maybe I will be a bit insensitive. I think i can finally say that my feelings are finally tidied and gone. I'm perfectly fine and okay with talking n interacting. Although the memories are still there I don't feel any sadness anymore. I finally let it go hahaha! A free man at the new year! Haha now I'm focused n ready for a levels. Nth can stop my drive to go full speed at my goal. Haha. May I pass thru this year with lots of smiles n happiness despite the tremendous stress that will be there! Ganbatte Cherie! What doesn't kill u makes u stronger! :)

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Reflections @ 11/10/2012 12:16:00 PM

After so long i decide to start blogging.... Okay the year is almost coming to an end. I really grew a lot in this year.Being in this particular JC really taught me a lot of things. Firstly, you have to fight to survive, fight for what you want. For every opportunities, you have to compete with others for it. Personally, i am someone who do not fight for what i want in the past. Im just like the happy-go-lucky type. However, now i have become so thick-skinned and so competitive. For everything i want the BEST, if i can i want to have lots and lots of consultations with teachers. I dun care abt the others. If they die, its their own business. WHY HAVE I BECOME LIKE THIS? I hate this ME, i have become such a nasty person. If others are worse of than me, i will be like, hey that person will be able raise my position, just a stepping stone for me to climb higher. They are also my fellow schoolmates, but i just dun care. So i have come to a conclusion, THIS SCHOOL IS TURNING ME INTO A MONSTER. They like the top students, middle band is useless, trash cannot do much to raise the school standard. I guess being a lousy neighbourhood school is like this. If i can turn back the time, i would have given up my dreams and go to a better school or just go to a poly into my dream course. I nvr knew this school is such a hell for me. Never did i know nightmare occurs once i entered the freaking school. The only reason i still survived is becos of my frens. If it is not for them, i think i have alr dropped out from school, wasting time at home. It is them who gave me strength to hold on and tell me its okay that they will be there for me. They made things better. However it failed to change one thing, the fact that i hate the school. I know shldn't spend my time hating the school but i can't just do it. Just another year i will be free from hell. God bless me that i can get out of there alive and well. :)

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

JUS @ 9/27/2011 11:13:00 PM

Do you know how I felt when I'm with u? I have to keep faking a smile when its hurting so much. There's nth I can do but to keep smiling telling ppl I am fine really. Do u know how hard its for me to try to stop thinking abt it? AND U JUS CAN'T STOP RUBBING SALT ON MY WOUND. I am bleeding without u knowing, my heart is crying while I am still smiling. I feel so tired being with u. No matter how hard I tried I am still not on ppl minds. what am I supposed to do, can u tell me? I put in all my heart in everything I do n it nvr fail to make me hurt. Why must it be me? why haven't the storm past why does it keep raining n raining I had been waiting for years for tat day where there shall be rainbow. Can I hold on to that day? Tired.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Preliems coming soon and i am stuck in this mess @ 6/14/2011 12:23:00 PM

Preliems are coming. I know this is really important. However my emotions are in a mess, i want to settle this once and for all but i dun have the courage to. Recently, i think i had dropped enough hints so this may be a cooling down period and time for u to think but for me i am really looking forward to ur ans and is afraid and nervous at the same time. At first i thought it was only me thinking too much or rather one sided. But ur actions really show me that it may not be. Ppl around u also supported my point. BUT WHY WHY did you not said it out? DO YOU KNOW I TOOK LOTS OF COURAGE TO ASK YOU N GIVE U A CHANCE TO SAY? U r not only bluffing me but urself too. 我知道我们彼此都没有勇气面对自己的感情对吧？Time i will give u but i dun have much more time left so... i know u r not that stupid right?

Thursday, May 12, 2011

点点滴滴 @ 5/12/2011 03:23:00 PM

在人生旅程中难免会遇到挫折，在面对挫折的党而我们也成长了不少。 我从年幼时就知道自己的智慧不比别人高。 小学一二年级， 大部分同学的数学成绩都很好， 但是我呢则是在班上排名第二十几位。看到大家都能拿到 A ， 我只有羡慕的份。从小二期我就下定决心一定要把我的数学考好。 我拼命的读书处了读书还是读书。我的努力重算没白费。我小三，小四的成绩优越升上小五的第二好班。 一路走来， 我经历过了那么多， 但到了中学。我的这份精神不知去了哪。 O 水准考试及将来临，我的年终考试局然那道呢么差的成绩。 看到现在的自己，我觉得很对不起当初那个为学业凭波的自己。我一直告诉自己不能因为自己天资不聪明而放弃， 反而因为我不聪明才要付出比别人多的努力。但是现在的我，一没有这种精神了。我真的累了。我不能放弃不能！多年来的努力不能这样就白费了。失败乃是成功之母，我相信自己能在此站起来的。加油吧！努力的前进吧！