Friday, July 24, 2009

Stressed!!! @ 7/24/2009 09:13:00 PM

4 tests, 4 projects in one week. Driving everyone crazy. Skills assessment nxt fri. So many things squeeze in one week. Let see my schedule. MON- Maths Olympaid, TUE-CCA, WED-Project work, THURS-Swiss Enrichment, FRI-CCA, SAT-CCA, SUNDAY-Hong Kah, tuition(4hrs) Plus all the tests, i really did not have time to rest. Hope that this difficult time will past soon.
I am extremely troubled by one thing. Dun ask me wat it is. However hard i tried to stop feeling sad over it, i failed and get sadder each time. Things changes and i know i can't force it but i feel that i am just like a substitution. I hate that feeling. I hope history dun repeat itself.
Today cca was sectional cum junior orchestra and i was extremely worried abt my junior haha! Anyway it went well and my dear junior is GREAT!! HOORAY!! Pamela actually fall asleep while playing her dizi. I wonder how she does it hehe!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Make it Stop @ 7/22/2009 08:28:00 PM

Everything is not going so well. I keep having a feeling that i did something wrong. For now, the word i hate and the thing i hate to do now is to GUESS. This word SUCKS totally. Dun ask me why i hate the word guess and hate to guess cos i won tell you. If you were in my shoes you would most probably hate this word too. Wats the feeling when you walk into an empty classroom ,wats the feeling when you say goodbye and nobody answers, wats the feeling when u ask qns and a IDK is what u get? This is not all. You were being pushed around(nicer word) or kicked around. Leave u out of everything. Tats a 'nice' feeling isn't it? Sobbing in class cos you can't stand it... Sitting in the canteen eating practically alone. I stopped going to the canteen now and then. Pls make all this stop!! Why must i be the one enduring all this? Treat my blog as an example, over 5mths and my blog visiting rate is still 500 plus haven even reach 1000. Telling myself 2moro will be better does not work anymore and the more i said it the sadder i felt. Each passing day is like a torture to me. Apart from all this, i did not have any time to rest, not even the weekends. (Sat-CCA, Sun- Hong Kah, tuition 4hrs) I am both physically and emotionally tired. Let my sad life story continues..............

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Tired @ 7/19/2009 10:22:00 PM

Make it stop. Make everything stop! All the scoldings, all the isolation make it stop. What have i done wrong. Even the weekends are busy for me. Can't you think for me. I am really tired, PHISCALLY or EMOTIONALLY. Sometimes, i feel like crying- walking into somewhere where no one is there for you. No one to comfort you, care for you and understand you. Nth i do seems to work. Maybe my method of handling things are too desperate and make ppl unhappy. Pls make all this stop! What does it feel like when your teacher need you to pay money and you are afraid to get money from ur parents cos you are worried that they might worry about it. Am i that transparent? What must i do to get ppl notice me?

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Family Gathering @ 7/18/2009 11:45:00 PM

Today, we had a family gethering at Aloha Resort. I went swimming with all my cousins and aunties. FYI: all my cousins that i go swimming with are aged 2-4yrs old. After the swim, we have BBQ and the sausage and chicken wings are really nice! Taking care of my cousins is not an easy task. When i ask them to stay at one place , they kaap running around. When i run to stop them, they run even faster. Just taking care of them makes me very tired. After BBQ, we went to the archade. My cousin played pool and i play the football game. I did not get the chance to go bowling cos i forgot to bring my socks. I played pool once and never played it again as mt skills are so lousy haha!This kind of gathering is very rare and so its great that i am able to attend. 2moro still had to go hong kah so need to sleep early. End

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Busy Week @ 7/14/2009 08:51:00 PM

This week is full of projects. There are a total of 4 projects,eng,d&t,chinese, cd. The worst thing is that i have to learn 43 chinese phrases for spelling. I even reschedule my tuition to make way for project work. But the lucky thing is that i have chalet from fri-sun. I planned to skip hong kah co practise but not sure yet maybe i will still go. Finally, i can go swimming and bbq le. Long time never go swimming le hehe. I haven had the time to post cos i am too busy so pls do not blame me. Anyway, i had still 43 phrases to learn so i shall end here. Good luck everybody with ur projex=cts work!! =)=)

Saturday, July 04, 2009

@ 7/04/2009 10:15:00 PM

Today, i went shopping with Jennifer and bought some clothing. We took 190 to orchard but there's a problem cos we did not know where to get off. Eventually we got off at one stop before the stop that we were supposed to get off. Luckily the place we wanted to go is not too far. We shopped for like 4hrs. We went to This Fashion. I choose some cheaper clothing cos i did not bring a lot of money. After shopping at This Fashion, we went to shop at Plaza Singapura. If i am not wrong that was my second time going there. The first time i went, i was like only 9 years old. Anyway, today was the most memorable shopping day ever. (FYI:I was rushing this post as my mom was nagging at me to off the com so this post may not be so well-written.)