Cherie
B-day: 21st Jan .
School: SCSS . Age:16 . Email : Click Here
i want
To achieve great results in studies. .
To get good achievements for CCA.
To be confident and speak to ppl with ease..
To be happy everyday.
To learn the piano and guitar!=(
A new phone.
To go overseas with my family
To dine in a restaurant with my family.
Whoa! Todae is soo fun! After school, i went to BPP to meet with my ex-classmates. We had a nice chat. Everyone changed a lot. Including me haha! Anyway, meeting up with ex-classmates is not wat you can do everyday so todae is very memorable. We had lunch 2gether. I forgot to bring money but luckily Shaina lend me five dollars. I dun noe when i will see her to return her the money... I will surely go to the next gathering and i will return her money!!! All the ex-6L guys grown taller except some hehe oh but all of them got darker complexion. We went to the basketball court in front of greenridge pri and played captains ball and basketball. My basketball sucks! Although i am tired from running et todae, i still played. Hope that there will be more gathering nxt time, i will remember to check class blog for it. I really hope there's a 6L class tee, i will surely but it!!!
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Heading nowhere @ 8/26/2009 08:43:00 PM
Todae, was a fine day cos i was cheered by my friends. I am sick of sitting at the back, everytime i do not get worksheets and had to ask for extra which is stupid. During tests, they passed soooo slow until i got 3minutes less to do my test. You may say that 3 min make no diff. but i beg to differ in 10 sec ppl from africa died from starvation. In 3mins, you may make corrections t ur ans. And save marks. Sitting behind, i cannot see the board which frustrate me. i suddenly feel so lost. I really can't seem to find a goal. In studies, there is a very clear goal for me but in other areas i can't seem to find one. I knew that i once gave up my chance but now i sort of regreted it. Whenever i knew that i will never be that, i feel sad. Its like i have no point in doing that thing as my goal vanish into thin air. I wanted to have someone to talk to abt things private stuff but i can't seem to find anyone that i can rely on. I seriously need guidance. I myself dun really understand what i want. I feel inferior and lousy. I hate this feeling!! Why can't i jus mix around, blend in and not feel extra? No courage to do things i like. Deep in my heart, i really want to achieve that. Nobody understand how i felt when they did things. You may be worried that u need to do that thing and say it out loud but do you noe that i may never get the chance to do that. I wish i would be worried and not feel sad for myself. Lousy...Stupid... No one understand. Someone pls advice me, help me i am really very depressed. All i wanted all this while is ATTENTION. tats all i want.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Randomness @ 8/21/2009 09:56:00 PM
Having a mixture of feelings today, happy cum sad. I was given two choices: To sit and talk about it, To endure it but it may cause hurt to yourself. I wanna choose the second option as i can keep things as the same and only me myself will be hurt. There is a limit to my endurance and i dun noe how this peace can last how long. If i sit down and talk about it, i may lost lots of things. Maybe lonliness will crept in again. Once bitten twice shy, in pri 5&6, i sat down and talk abt it then things turn for the worst. Even though i have made my decision, i still feel that maybe i cab choose the first option. Pls ppl give me advice.... What it feels to be kept in the dark??? Pls think before you act in case you hurt ppl. Like how i am being hurt.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
FUN! @ 8/19/2009 03:39:00 PM
todae, i had p.e and i played floorball. I suck totally at the game. Luckily, Jennifer is in my group and so things improved. Btw, i got hit by Ariel 2 times. Haha! I also got caught by my teacher two times for not holding the stick properly. We were told not to scream or laugh too loud but i cannot control myself. After that we had recess, we went back to class and i got beaten by pam. She kept poking me! So i go and try to poke her but fail. Then i accidentally touched something sticky. So disgusting, i ran to the toilet to wash my hands. I tried to use my wet hands to pat pam but also failed. She twisted my hands. Pain... Then Jasmine came and demo wat pam did to her yesterday. You know what she did? She used both hands and slap me in the back! Pain... Maths lesson was quite "okay" behind was a little noisy but i still understand wat the teacher is talking abt. Had to revise my sci test and do my swiss enrichment project le. Bye..
Friday, August 14, 2009
INTERESTING! @ 8/14/2009 07:48:00 PM
Todae dun have cca and i stayed back for project. Cool. Saw ms ng at mrt and my friends and i chat with her for a while. Not many homework for this week but ms lam leaving le... She gave everybody chocolate. Haven eat mine cos its in the fridge. hehe! Printed all the scores le. 290 pieces Whoa!! Hehe 2moro going to bring to school and my bag cannot be heavier. Tried to remain positive but heart still hurt becos of some actions. Maybe i can't change anything at all and so had to accept my fate. Anyway, i am trying to have the i-dun-care attitude. Wish me good luck bah!!
Todae, i went to Fajar to print things and i wore my new shoes. I regretted wearing it cos now my feet has blisters. Painful sia... The swiss enrichment is quite boring but it will affect our marks so had to try to concentrate more. Almost got late, luckily in time. After one week of mc and also 1 week of break from running, i tried very hard to catch up all the things i missed and luckily ET today was still okay for me. I wanted to focus all my energy on my studies and not care too much on other stuff like _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.
This is fate! @ 8/13/2009 07:30:00 PM
Sometimes, i feel so insecure and sad. I do not blame you that you dun tell me but can you make it so i won't know that you dun wan to let me know. I will feel much better that way. Preference change overtime i know that but pls still put me in your mind. I always pretend that i remain oblivious but sometimes my heart jus aches when i see ur actions. Maybe i am not very experience for things that you wanna ask someone for advice but still if you consider me as ur _ _ _ _ _ _ you should tell me even if i cannot help u. My heart feels so empty. I tried very hard to amend things but it takes two hands to clap and i won succeed if i do it myself. What i do makes you annoyed? Irritated? Do i have to do stupid things to attract attention? I dun wan to be those kind of pathetic person. I am trying so hard not to be transparent and everytime i fail. When i hear this words i feel that my heart is totally shattered int pieces-I dun wan to tell you! OKay so rmb dun tell me this!!! You know how it feels to be smiling outside and bleeding inside? I am always the one giving way and i am tired of that but i dun have the courage to break. I prefer to be hurting inside then being _ _ _ _ _ _. People jus dun notice me... even teachers... Maybe being immune to the pain would help~~~~~
