Sunday, January 27, 2013

I'm such a failure @ 1/27/2013 12:14:00 AM

I don't know how to make people like me, adore me. I do not know how to joke. I do not know how to cheer people up. I do not know how to interact with people. I'm a boring person isn't it? So what is the point of studying so hard? What's the point of working so hard? My cousins fare worse for their studies compared to me. But the score much well for their life as a human being. All I know is to study n study n study. Friends a few less than 10. Dating experience none. So this is my life? What am I doing? What exactly am I? I fail totally as a human being? Isolate me just let me sit alone in the class. Our picture is never ur profile picture. I'm not pretty. I'm fat. Why do I have to work so hard to achieve things? Why ppl have it so easily? Why despite the hard work I had put in I still gained nth? Am I really a trash? Cca a normal member. A normal to the max person? Someone not worth people attention? Can u make me feel important for once? Not extra not an eyesore. Not a substitute. My life is so pointless and meaningless. Can God pls give me some directions to go about in my life? I'm tired of being me. I hate myself.

Wednesday, January 02, 2013

New year, a new beginning @ 1/02/2013 01:04:00 AM

It's the new year!! A brand new year, new beginning. Note to self for this year I'm going to be more optimistic n stop complaining. I'm also not going to be bothered about ppl maybe I will be a bit insensitive. I think i can finally say that my feelings are finally tidied and gone. I'm perfectly fine and okay with talking n interacting. Although the memories are still there I don't feel any sadness anymore. I finally let it go hahaha! A free man at the new year! Haha now I'm focused n ready for a levels. Nth can stop my drive to go full speed at my goal. Haha. May I pass thru this year with lots of smiles n happiness despite the tremendous stress that will be there! Ganbatte Cherie! What doesn't kill u makes u stronger! :)