Saturday, July 24, 2010

Past @ 7/24/2010 07:03:00 PM

Can u remember the times we spent together?? I chased you around the school like a mad woman and u hide in the toilet to avoid me. Haha that period of time is so short yet so sweet. Almost every week we will do that.. Happy times are soon gone when teacher changed our seats. We became distant. I really missed the time chasing u around the school. Although it was quite stupid and childish. I know we will never go back to that time i regret not having able to keep you by my side. Its all too late now...

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Get up and MOVE ON!! @ 7/14/2010 08:05:00 PM

I have been thinking a lot. I will clear my doubts during the right time and for now i am going to forget abt this and move on... The future is GREAT!!!!! Treat the past as a challenge, obstacle to go through. More life experiences haha... Kay seriously it is not ur fault. So stop saying its ur fault kay? I will forget abt what she did then move on... I will still be looking forward to the end of the year.. Haha No point thinking abt the past, what's done has been done, there's no use crying over spilled milk so i am jus going to enjoy what i have now. :):):):)

Thursday, July 08, 2010

Screwed Up @ 7/08/2010 06:24:00 PM

Today was the cl oral... Damn screwed. My nervousness screwed it up... I hope a miracle will happen.. Anwway beside this, I feel so stressed by the amt of work i had to do. Problems keep surfacing and things keep bugging me. I feel so sad. If only i am a very outgoing person maybe things would not be snatch from me. If only... when can all those if only come true??? When can i stop day dreaming?? When can i finally get u? Why do you show concern to her only?? Who am I to you??

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

"SHE" never felt so lost before... @ 7/06/2010 06:47:00 PM

A girl where she tries her best in everything she do,timid but trying to be brave now. All she wanted was just attention from her peers. She wished that sometimes people could praise her and encourage her when she's down. She wished that someone would care about her and not just ignore her treat her as transparent. What did the girl do wrong to deserve this. Why is that in ur eyes there's only that PERSON and not her. Why can't you treat both of them equally? Is it that hard? She don't belong here, this is not the place she belong to. No one sees her. People just treat her as a toy to play around to do this to that...
The day has never been so dark and cold. Walking on the dark street alone, feeling so sad to myself. I am so great that no one even sees me. Who exactly am i? Just someone to play with and throw it away when there's no use anymore... Sealing myself in my own little world where there are no pain nor sorrow. A place that is heaven to me somewhere i will not be hurt.
Repeating the same thing to you seems naggy. But why do i keep repeating myself? Cos there's only you i can talk to. Talking to the wall, tables, chairs and even trees does not make my mood better. Only through talking to you i feel relieved. But some stuff i can't say it out i need someone to listen to me to encourage me. My whole heart is going to burst. All those are pilling up waiting for the right time to engulf me. I do not know when i can finally say I AM HAPPY?