Wednesday, October 20, 2010

I really want to end this... @ 10/20/2010 07:17:00 PM

OKAy, stop being so moody Cherie!!! Haiz, why do i have to see you make that gesture? Why can't i pretend nth has happen? Everytime you appear, I told myself that i can do it i must prove it to you but i failed everytime. I hate myself,, really hate myself becoming like this. Why can't you see my effort, why can't u see how i am feeling?????? Everytime i had to wear a mask in front of you, i am really tired... I am forever last on ur list, u make me feel inferior... Nobody notice ur gesture that makes me feel so hurt now, no matter how hard i can never suceed. I feel like crying my heart out, i jus want to fulfil my small little dream i have since young i did not know i have to suffer this much to realise it. I hate myself for being so stupid and inferior. All i wanted was just a phrase good job from you. can i ever hear it in my life? I really wanted all this to end... PLS make it end.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Exams are officially OVER!! @ 10/13/2010 01:46:00 PM

Exams are OVER!! Yeah finally.. Addicted to watching drama again... I dun even know what cause me to get so addicted. Maybe its because the reality is too much for me and i want to indulge in my small little world where everything comes true and I live happily ever after. I know i shld face up to the reality but i dun wan to i really wan to believe that what i am dreaming of will come true. How foolish and unrealistic! HAHA but i like it. I know i shld stop dreaming but the dreams are too perfect and nice to ignore. I really hope i will not wake up from my dreams. The reality is too cruel, tiring and complicated.
2moro no school and i am going out with my BEST FRENS yeah!! How good it that? I can't wait for 2moro to arrive. Shopping and shopping Yeah!! Nxt week going to be a sporting week, i gonna exercise and exercise. Oh not to forget my tomatos and celery hahahahaha... I am going to get a life FINALLY!!!!!!