Saturday, March 20, 2010

Another stab in my heart @ 3/20/2010 11:04:00 PM

I dun wanna know why you did that but i can't stop myself from thinking about it. My dreams are being dashed and it is not enough and you want to dash my hopes too. I worked hard for a miracle to happen and you trampled on my hope that easily. I hate myself for being so fragile and i try to hide my tears from you. I am not someone who will just open to everyone i just met i need a longer time to open myself up and this gives me a disadvantage. I knew that and i am trying my very very best to change that. Everytime i force myself t smile, my heart feel like being ripped open and is bleeding. I had already taken an extremely big step and its still not enough. I am really very tired, I wanna abandon my pathetic dream and start anew but its too late. Nightmares keep coming back, am i too paranoid or is that the truth that i dun wanna face? I really have no idea... Darkness seemed to be lurking around waiting to swallow the last part of my dream world. How can i stop it???