Wednesday, October 20, 2010

I really want to end this... @ 10/20/2010 07:17:00 PM

OKAy, stop being so moody Cherie!!! Haiz, why do i have to see you make that gesture? Why can't i pretend nth has happen? Everytime you appear, I told myself that i can do it i must prove it to you but i failed everytime. I hate myself,, really hate myself becoming like this. Why can't you see my effort, why can't u see how i am feeling?????? Everytime i had to wear a mask in front of you, i am really tired... I am forever last on ur list, u make me feel inferior... Nobody notice ur gesture that makes me feel so hurt now, no matter how hard i can never suceed. I feel like crying my heart out, i jus want to fulfil my small little dream i have since young i did not know i have to suffer this much to realise it. I hate myself for being so stupid and inferior. All i wanted was just a phrase good job from you. can i ever hear it in my life? I really wanted all this to end... PLS make it end.