Thursday, August 13, 2009

This is fate! @ 8/13/2009 07:30:00 PM

Sometimes, i feel so insecure and sad. I do not blame you that you dun tell me but can you make it so i won't know that you dun wan to let me know. I will feel much better that way. Preference change overtime i know that but pls still put me in your mind. I always pretend that i remain oblivious but sometimes my heart jus aches when i see ur actions. Maybe i am not very experience for things that you wanna ask someone for advice but still if you consider me as ur _ _ _ _ _ _ you should tell me even if i cannot help u. My heart feels so empty. I tried very hard to amend things but it takes two hands to clap and i won succeed if i do it myself. What i do makes you annoyed? Irritated? Do i have to do stupid things to attract attention? I dun wan to be those kind of pathetic person. I am trying so hard not to be transparent and everytime i fail. When i hear this words i feel that my heart is totally shattered int pieces-I dun wan to tell you! OKay so rmb dun tell me this!!! You know how it feels to be smiling outside and bleeding inside? I am always the one giving way and i am tired of that but i dun have the courage to break. I prefer to be hurting inside then being _ _ _ _ _ _. People jus dun notice me... even teachers...
Maybe being immune to the pain would help~~~~~