Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Hurt Again @ 10/28/2009 09:27:00 PM

Sorry for not posting for sooo long! Haiz... CCA resume le i veri busy printing the scores... Anyway, I am trying extremely hard not to be bothered by some veri hurtful stuff. I feel veri useless no matter how hard i try it ends up badly... I try to sort of acceppt the outcome but every time she said that kind of words i would feel knives flying towards me cutting me... I tried veri hard to be nice, not angry abt it but everytime i see you did this i am veri sad. Although i am smiling it does not mean that i am really happy... Pls spare a thought for my feelings. The holidays heal my wounds but your actions open my wounds once more. I am giving up now hope that it is what you wish for... Congratz for wining! Wat is the feeling of losing ur goal knowing that no matter how hard you try you will never succeed??? IT'S OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!