Saturday, January 30, 2010

Meaningless @ 1/30/2010 06:09:00 PM

What's the point of doing ur best when you get nothing in return?? I finally understood that it really doesn't pay to be kind. When you think for the person and help the person, it doesn't mean that the person will do the same for you. They always forgot abt you. Maybe i was too kind, i should be mean, heartless, evil? Am i a person that will be easily forgotten?? Jus an extra person in ur life? It also doesn't pay to be good, whats the point of being good when ppl do not even appreciate it. I am deteriorating if you can notice, i dun even bothered to practise, everything is MEANINGLESS. WHATS THE POINT?? i believe no one would ans me... Sometimes, i would be in daze thinking abt how you treated me and why do i deserve it, is my decision really wrong? When the time i can leave, the scars that you leave on me will forever be there and it will remind me of the painful and beautiful memories. All i wanted from you was care and concern but what i get is negligence. Behind the smiles, is someone who wanted to fulfil her dreams but got hurt over and over again am i really jus a toy that you can use when you need and throw it away when you do not need it?? What's wrong with me and my character?